Day with Ah Yee

Ah yee flew off on Tuesday night and she especially reserved the day for me to spend with her. We didn't do anything extra special. We had our meals and shop and did plenty of catching up. We talked and talked and talked. It didn't seem that we would ever run out of topics. She updated me about her live in Paris, her new house, C’s family and her Singapore close friends whom I met/ know. I ranted mostly about my pathetic relationship with our mum and shared about the kids. It felt so familiar and good, even the focus-less shopping in Bugis, just like what we would do years back.

The last bit of the sharing was very emotional. Maybe I was feeling emotionally weak from the recent minor conflicts with my mum, maybe I was subconsciously depressed that she was heading home. Ah yee was sad too to have to leave once again the familiar place that she grew up, her family and friends, to a still foreign land that she now has to call home. We parted ways (she went home to pack and I had to pick Lil Shauna from school) with the unspoken realization that we all have to live out our choices until such a time that we make another major decision that would change our lives. Meanwhile, just suck thumb and live life bcos this is life. We all know that after that evening, we will again be thousands of miles apart and there is nothing much that we can do to help each other, except for the emotional support that we could give via whatsapp.

We didn't see each other much when I was finally home with Lil Shauna. We said the final goodbyes and share hugs. Surprisingly, Popo seems to take the farewell better than I did. That night, I was severely depressed. I felt bad that I didn't ask her more about how she is doing in Paris but took so much air time to rant about my issues. I should have listen to her more and gave her more emotional support.

Of course the farewell is not forever; we have already decided to visit her in France at the end of the year. My work trip to Geneva also looks less daunting now bcos it means the possibility of meeting up with ah yee. Meanwhile, I just have to be thankful for technology that makes communication so possible.

Take care ah yee. It wouldn't be long before we meet again. And I constantly have the thermal flask on my table, reminding me of your thoughtfulness and love for me as I slowly savored my hot coffee. Muaks.

Mummy Lim