Blood Boils

Lil Shauna got new patterns. We all know that she cannot take "no" for an answer. We just have to be prepared for her tantrum when we tell her "no" to some requests. Of course we dun want to give in just bcos she threw tantrum. So, it had been endless tantrum throwing and crying and fussing and whinning recently. She is simply testing my patience whenever she whines instead of speak. I have to remind her so constantly that I cannot understand her when she whines. -.o"

Then, she has doubled her stake. She will do something wrong, either accidentally or INTENTIONALLY and when we tell her that it is wrong, she will start crying, even before we start disciplining her. -________-" And this can happen so many times a day. Yday, it was climbing up her chair, onto the sofa and jumping off the sofa. We told her "no" to prevent accidents. Then in the night, it was kicking against the wall and the bed for NO reason. It was plain irritaing. This morning, she refused to go to school for reasons beyond me. In fact, she wasnt able to give me reason why she didnt want to go to school and had to be carried off crying. Haiz.

Other than that, she has started this "bu yao pappy/ mummy" when we tell her that it is wrong to do ___________, then she will start crying/ fussing/ whining and the next moment, she will ask for "mummy bao". Similar to the above, it just happens over and over and over again in a day. Initially, I was hurt when I heard her says "bu yao mummy", wondering if I have done something wrong to hurt her or made her feel rejected. But after so many "bu yao mummy" and each time after some "no" from me. I get immuned. Haiz, bad mummy.

I duno if she's doing all these to seek our attention or simply part of growing up. Haiz. It simply gets on my nerves and at times, I lashed out at her. It is so obvious that I am less patient with her now. Whose fault? Hers or mine? Just a vicious cycle. Maybe it will be better when I go back to work. I duno. Pui, bad day. I am waiting for Daddy Lim to come home and bring us go gai gai. I am wanting a sinful ice blended from coffee bean. Hoho.

Mummy Lim