Lil Isaac is Sick

P.s - this post was written on Sunday evening but completed only now.

Lil Isaac is admitted to kkh this afternoon for fever. He measured 38.6 degree upon admission and the protocol is to admit all infants below 3 months old with fever above 38.5 degrees for thorough checks. So here I am, spending the night in kkh with him.

I feel super lousy. I found him unusually drowsy 2 nights ago but dismissed it as he was awake and alert last night. I tucked him to bed at 9pm and went to bed at 11pm after tucking the princess to bed. He woke up at 12mn for his 1st night feed and at 2.45am for his 2nd night feed. Thereafter, he refused to be put down and would cry if we tried. This lasted until this afternoon. I didn't get much sleep and was so glad when my mum took over at 6am. He cried intermittently despite us carrying him constantly and the frequency and intensity of his cries increased. We were all at our wits end, not knowing what exactly is wrong with him.

At certain point, I thought he felt warm but I thought it was normal for infants. I tried taking his temperature using the ear thermometer and the reading was normal so I dismissed fever. I had wonder of the reading was accurate since his ear was so small but i did not entertain the thought for long. Then, we thought he was colicky or maybe tummyache but realized that some thing must be wrong when he still kept crying after almost 9 hrs and he refused to feed! He refused to latch after his last feed at 2.45am! He did latch here and there until he was admitted but nothing much than 5mins on one breast.

At kkh, I was shock to realize that Lil Isaac was running a high fever. And I was even more shock when the doctor told me that he has to be admitted. That was when I started crying too. I felt so uber lousy, didn't even realize that my son was running a high fever. I had thought that they would send him home after giving him a Jan or something.

At the ward, the doctor said that they have to take blood, urine and some spinal fluid thingy to test for blood, urine and brain infection respectively. Each of the procedure sounds so uber painful to me. Boohoo! They will also administer antibiotics just in case Lil Isaac had one of the mentioned bacterial infection. The preliminary result will be out in a few hours but the definite result would take 48hrs. They will stop the respective antibiotics if the result turns out to be negative. I am not sure if the antibiotic is harmful to Lil Isaac but the doctors are saying that the benefits will surpass the harm should any of the bacterial infection test turns up positive.

We were emotionally and physically drained and Lil Isaac wouldn't stop crying. In fact, he had cried himself hoarse. Heartache. We are so thankful to have really nice nurses at the ward. While waiting for a bed and doctor to explain what is to come, the nurses offered to take over and calm the crying very badly baby so that we could compose ourselves. The nurses are so friendly and warm and definitely helped to make us feel better.

Poor Lil Isaac. He was still very much cranky and would be alternating between sleeping and crying until now. I felt even more lousy for not able to make him feel better. I feel worse when i thought about Lil Shauna.

When we were home this morning in the room, she was fussy asking me to hug her but I could not oblige bcos I was carrying and latching Lil Isaac. She accidentally kicked Lil Isaac while I was latching him and was disciplined by Daddy Lim. She cried pitifully and was asking for mummy but I was too busy with Lil Isaac to go to her. Sob. And when we were bringing the baby to kkh, she pleaded to go along but we heartlessly left her behind. Double sob. She's such a poor thing since Lil Isaac comes along. I feel so lousy for having to treat her this way. Double sob. I hope she will grow up soon and understand that we love her just as much and we are not forsaking her.

Tonight is the 1st night and there should be a few more to come. Haiz. I hope all things turned out fine eventually. Pls pray for protection and speedy recovery for Lil Isaac.

Mummy Lim