Following the "mission" trip, we were both hopeful and desperate. Afterall, that was our 10th month trying & 5th clomid (medication to help ovulation) attempt. Before the trip, we had decided that should mission still fail, we will seek a 2nd opinion and maybe consider artificial means.
A few days before my menses was due, I experienced painful cramps, which were not uncommon after I went on clomid. After enduring for several days, I decided to go on pain killers but to do an urine test first to make sure that I was not preggy.
I proceeded with the test with ease and familiarity and watched with anxiety as the negative line appeared. My heart sank... Tears started forming and I started asking God why (doesnt this sound too familiar? Heehe). Just as I was about to throw the test kit away, I saw this really faint positive line forming. Viola!! I couldnt believe my eyes and couldnt give thanks enuff! Like any 1st time mummy-to-be (MTB), I saved the test kit until Daddy Lim came home to show him. The used test kit felt like a Picasso master piece then. Haha. We were both excited and over the moon. However, little did we know that pregnancy is not as simple was what was portray on the TV.
Re: 1st scare
The cramps sustained its intensity and frequency. Fearing that it might be an ectopic pregnancy, we went to the doctor. At the clinic, the scan shows no evidence of pregnancy. Arrangement was made for me to undergo a detail scan and blood test. After several days of anxious waiting, the detail scans shows a tiny sac sitting in the right place. With that, I was put on many jabs and medication, attempting to secure the pregnancy. I visited the clinic every other day for jabs but the scans still picked up nothing. The doctor was hopeful, but warned us that by a certain date, if the sac was still not visible, it would mean that the pregnancy had terminated itself. During that period, my emotions went on a roller coaster. At times, I trusted thay God will deliver His promises and remain hopeful. Yet, I was badly hit by reality and was lined with fear and anxiety. We mobilised many prayer warriors. Daddy Lim was my pillar and he was full of encouragement. We prayed often for God to sustain Lil Shauna and I saw my Daddy Lim grew in faith. :)
Finally, after many prayers, encouragements, jabs & medication, we saw Lil Shauna appeared on the scan as a little dot. Our heart leaped with joy. But, it was just the beginning.
Re: 2nd scare
I proceeded smoothly with the pregnancy (or so I thought). My appetite was wonderful. I often felt hungry and could stomach all my food. Other than the occasionally dizzy spells, morning sickness was non-existent. Then, almost to the end of the 1st trimester, I experienced bleeding while at work one day. I was shocked when I saw the toilet bowl filled with blood after easing myself (opps, sorrie for the details). Unfortunately, Daddy Lim was outstationed too.
I rushed to the clinic, eager to ensure Lil Shauna is safe & sound. I prayed hard for God's protection and was really worried that God would take Lil Shauna away from me. Didnt the statistics say that 1 in every 5 pregnancy ended in miscarriages and it often takes place in the 1st trimester? I scared myself silly but was glad to see Lil Shauna's strong & steady heartbeat + active movement at the clinic. I was ordered bedrest & given 5 days of MC.
With that marked the end of the 1st trimester. God is kind, gracious & protective. However, we also realised His cruel sense of humor that keeps us at the edge of our seat. Why? You will find out soon. :)
Mummy Lim
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