Jealous Mummy

I used to be so proud that I understand what Lil Shauna is saying when Daddy Lim doesnt. It is like I am exclusive. But now, Daddy Lim and I sometimes cant make out what Lil Shauna is saying and J has to interpret for us. Sad... I have lost that exclusiveness. Sob. I am jealous.

I spy on J via the internet video from office. I see Lil Shauna singing and dancing and monkeying with J or ah yee or Daddy Lim (while he is on night shift). I drool and I wonder why I am not there jumping and playing with her. I am jealous.

Lil Shauna used to stick to me like glue when she sees me after work. However, her stickiness seems to have wear off a little bit recently. I am sometimes glad that she doesnt stick to me so much cos I am extra time to rest and watch TV, but that is the little time that I have with her for a day and she chose to play with someone else. I am jealous.

I have always fear the day that she wants J over mummy. Just now, I was making milk for her. She was with me in the kitchen and J started playing with her and carrying her. She actually wanted J to continue carrying her and rejected coming back with me to the bedroom! (thunder... lightning...) I am so jealous.

It is such an irony that J became closer to my daughter bcos of the amount of time that she spent with her but drifted further from her own precious daughter. This is life and I am still a jealous mummy. Roaaarrrr...

I better treasure the time that I have tucking her to bed, playing hide and seek with her, singing lullaby and playing silly games before she decides that she is too old for them one day. My baby is growing up!

Mummy Lim

Bb is the Best!

Now that Daddy Lim is on night shift, I vexed about going home whenever I worked 6.30pm. If I work late, I have a higher chance of sharing cab with colleague. If it is 6.30pm, I would need to get a cab myself. As no cab driver would drive to ulu Tuas for me to flag down, I must call cab. The calling fees and the peak hours surcharge + the meter fare would easily add up to $12 to $13 wor. Alternatively, I can run for bus no. 257. But missing the 6.30pm bus would mean that I have to wait at least 15 mins for the next one. And I have to squeeze with many other people... The bus ride takes about 45mins. Yes, it is not at all appealing.

Last Friday, I was again fretting over how to go home. I didnt want to let the cab uncle earn my $$ but was too lazy to take public transport and I have no dinner. I tried calling Daddy Lim at 5pm and had no reply and assumed that he was still sleeping. I got him at 5.30pm and he told me that the time was too tight and he would be late for work. Bo bian lor. I just have to find my own way back + dinner lor.

I must have sounded very pathetic cos Daddy Lim called me back shortly and agreed to pick me up + quick dinner at the risk of being late for work. Yippee. We have a simple BK dinner.
But I was a happy mummy. And I reached home to an empty house. Lil Shauna was at Popo's place and Popo will only bring her home at 8+pm. I was happily and quietly munching potato chips and watching TV. Heavenly...

Mummy Lim

I Drove Again!

I drove to work and back this morning. Hohoho. I was a little panicky while on the way to work. Every single car/ lorry/ bus behind seem to be tailgating me. I keep wondering if I should step harder on the accelerator so as to close up the gap between the me and the car in front. Otherwise, will the car behind me feels that I am driving too slowly? It was actually quite stressful.

Then I have to squeeze the Tiguan into skinny car park lot. I wonder if it is a standard size lot. Maybe not, since space is so precious in the yard. Then I have to worry about knocking down stupid workers who might anytime try to dash across behind the car or knocking down and scratching that bicycle that was parked so near to the lot. I was so glad when i finally got Tiguan into the lot, even when Tiguan was parked crookedly.

The gg home trip was a lot better. The road was less crowded and the parking attempt at the multi-storey carpark turned out better. I was so proud that Tiguan was parked properly in the lot this time.

I had wanted to drive to nainai's place and back home too but did not managed to get the princess' approval. Hmm.. I do hope to drive more often. Practice makes perfect. :)

Mummy Lim

Dun Kick My Bladder

I starting feeling fluttering in my 17th weeks and the karate moves only come in in my 19th/ 20th weeks. People say that preggy ladies with boys tend to carry lower and I think it is so true.

Recently, Lil Zu-Le seems to be consistently standing and purposely kicking my bladder. Whenever that happens, it sends this need-to-pee sensation. In the initial few times, it made me run for the toilet, but nothing much came out. Subsequently, I just bear with that sensation. It is actually irritating when he kicks my bladder. It makes me wake to do a leg-twisting-to-hold-your-pee dance. Arrggghhh, he is still very small now. I wonder what will happen when he grows bigger. Maybe I should just sit constantly on the toilet bowl. -.o"

Mummy Lim

Security Blanket

I brought the mini blanket out on Wednesday and I think it does help. Lil Shauna appears to like to have the little blanket covering her while she attempts to nap. However, she didnt pay special attention to it when she's awake.

In fact, she doesnt really want it and wanted to throw the blanket onto the floor. We will try again tomorrow. If it is me, I would be glad to have a soft and nice blanket while I try to sleep. Hehe.

Mummy Lim

I Drove

It was only to Jurong Point and back on Wednesday morning for breakfast. I was on leave. :) Thre wasnt much traffic on the road, the carparks were empty too. Lil Shauna was strapped in the car seat and Daddy Lim was busy entertaining the princess. J didnt come along. It was just breakfast and we can handle Lil Shauna on our own. We had a great time as a family, something that we hadnt for the past 3 months. It is sometimes strange how we need a outsider's help to make you treasure such family time.

The journies were fine. Tiguan still look as good, no additional bumps or dents. Daddy Lim says that I need to improve on my braking and that Lil Shauna better be strapped in when I drive. He was too busy otherwise and didnt comment much. Driving was generally alright, but my parking sux. I think it must be bcos the car is too big. Hohoho. It took me awhile to get the car into the car park lot. I tot I went thru' a near heart attack after finally squeezing the big car into the tiny lot (in my perspective) and Daddy Lim had to tell me that the car is parked crookedly. Win liao. Who cares, so long as I get the car in and dun block the road.

It was so stressful to park, I have to purposedly look for locations with lessers car so that I can go in and out the lot and adjust for 235 times before I get the car in. I get uber stress when there are other cars waiting cos Daddy Lim, when he is one of those cars waiting will complain impatiently. I can imagine those waiting dricers complaining already.

So, I think I will try longer routes the next time! Maybe, if it doesnt rain, I can drive them to WCP for breakfast on Sunday. Hohoho.

Mummy Lim

Mica Mouse and Badoh Bear

Lil Shauna has a whole truck of soft toys. Somehow, nainai, xiao shu and auntie Chris love to buy soft toys for her. Sometimes, her parents also kena cheated by her too and ended up buying the soft toy that she was hugging and lugging everywhere in the toy shop but they always ended up in some corner after they were brought home. Lil Shauna dun really love her soft toy except for Mica Mouse and Badoh bear.

She calls Mickey Mouse = Mica Mouse and Badoh Bear refers to ee yore. The latter is bcos she once called ee yore Badoh Bear when she was young and Daddy Lim got so excited and kept telling her that ee yore is Badoh Bear and thus the name. They are the only soft toys that made it on our bed every night. The rest are on the floor or somewhere else in the house. She will actually look for Mica Mouse and Badoh Bear every night without fail. She enjoys playing with them. However, she doesnt really hug them to sleep. Maybe she might hug Badoh Bear once in a while but seldom Mica Mouse.

Ah yee mentioned that Lil Shauna seems a little insecure and a security pillow/ blanket might do her some good. Lil Shauna doesnt have one. She doesnt suck pacifier too. I had always wanted to introduce to her a security something. This is actually useful for her to relate to nap or bedtime.

So, mummy bought this.

I noe, this is actually meant for babies and it is probably a little too late to try to introduce such a thing to Lil Shauna. I just wanted to try and if it really fails, then this will go to no. 2 lor. It is really soft and nice to touch. I was trying to look for something small and light so that we can bring it out with us and Lil Shauna can hold or hug it when we are outside to help her to nap. As expected, she wasnt that keen on the mini blanket and lost interest shortly. I will try it again when we are outside. :)

We also bought a new Badoh Bear. She loves Badoh Bear and this one only cost $6. We will bring it along for some of our weekend trips and perhaps on holiday too. :)

And why is it hanging by the ears? Bcos Popo says that soft toys, especially those not wrapped in plastic are dirty and must be washed when they are brought home before given to the babies. Since it wasnt that expensive, Badoh Bear no. 2 took a spin in the washing machine and is having some sun + moon tan. Hohohoho. It still looks good after the wash and it will probably go into the washing machines many more times if we bring it outside. We hope Lil Shauna will find her security something soon. :)

Mummy Lim

Sleeping on Her Own - Part 4

We have decided to take a break. This will keep us sane too. It is too tiring to wake up and pacify an unhappy kid in the middle of the night. I dun think I can take too many 1-hr tantrum, especially when Daddy Lim is on night shift.

Lil Shauna had been sleeping with us since she kena the LS virus. She has been having fitful sleep for the past few nights. Other than her usual turning and tossing, she will wake up and look for mummy or cry or ask for milk, sometimes up 2x in a night. We suspect that the experience to make her sleep on her own might be a little too traumatic or she might have become a little more insecure bcos of the experience. Ah yee says this is especially so when she always wake up in the morning to find us missing and dun get to see us the entire day until in the evening. Come to think of it, she's such a poor thing.

So, we have decided to maybe try again after Daddy Lim comes back from night shift. If things still fail, then we will opt for plan B and have no. 2 sleeps with the maid. I believe that this might be an easier way out for all of us.

Mummy Lim

Daddy Lim goes on Night Shify Again

It is not the 1st time that Daddy Lim goes on night shift. However, I do feel a little lost this time and I am already starting to miss him on day 1. Haiz, must be the crazy hormones. Maybe bcos it is getting more and more tiring and difficult to try to take care of the princess with a growing tummy, especially when she fusses or goes into mummy-only mode. Sob. It doesnt help that I have J now. She is nowhere near compared to Daddy Lim during bedtime.

Today, we (including ah yee) went to church together. Daddy Lim will be able to join me for church when he's on night shift. That is probably the only plus thing that I see. It is actually lonely gg to church and attending service alone. And ah yee will be busy on most Sundays from July onwards. I think I better start attending the PCM group. Oh, the leader finally contacted me after 3 weeks' wait and there was a meeting last Wed. I was only informed on Mon and skipped the session. There were too much fear and anxieties due to too many unknowns. Strange hor. I also not sure why am I so worried, but just need to know more before I start attending the PCM. Prayers pls.

Bcos Daddy Lim has to work on Sunday night and has to take his nap before his work, we will be gg to nainai's place on Sats. But nainai has to work on the Sats that we dun, so it is actually not ideal. And I have to find entertainment for Lil Shauna on the next few Suns that Daddy Lim is on night shift. I am already tired at the tot of it. -______-"

So, how did we spend today? I was so glad that ah yee is free today after church and dated ah yee. She tot for a long while before suggesting Paragon, which is ideal. It is not too crowded and there are many kids' stuff there. Lil Shauna took her nap in Paragon and we had a great afternoon tea with a sleeping baby.

It was actually just simple tea with a big, sinful piece of chocolate cake, but it was so wonderful. The P.S cafe's atmosphere was great too. It makes the whole afternoon really relaxed. No worries about the baby (sleeping) and no hurry. I wonder if we will ever have such chance again when no. 2 is out.

When Lil Shauna finally wakes up, it was simply entertaining the princess and roaming one toy place to another until dinner time. We had a nice dinner at Fish & Co too before heading to the taxi stand for cab. It is far too tiring to travel home via MRT.

There was such a long Q at the taxi stand. Most of them were ang mos. It would have been a long wait of it is not bcos we spotted a cab who was changing shift at Boon Lay and the cab driver was glad to send us home in Jurong West. We snatched the cab immediately, no turning of heads, all jumping into the cab in split second, hoping that there were no other Jurong Westerners who were in the Q before us. I think not lah, most of them are ang mos mah, where got ang mos stay Jurong West de? Even if there are, I think they should forgive me on the account that I am preggy and I am with a toddler. Or at least I promised not to curse and swear at the next person who snatch my cab the next time. ;p

We made it home safe and sound and very tired. there are still 3 more weekends to go before Daddy Lim is back on day shift and I hope it will be a loooooonnnnggg time before he goes on night shift again. Bb, I miss you...

Mummy Lim

Waking the Sleeping Beauty

Nope, it is ah yee and not price charming.
Nope, it is not a precious kiss but a piece of tissue paper.

No wonder the princess refuses to wake up.
Oops, will ah yee kena sued for child abuse?

Mummy Lim