Finally, the Company event is over and I am happy and relief beyond words. Just in case you are wondering, I am safe and sound. Like I mentioned in my earlier post, it wasn't my safety that was at question but that of my follow colleagues.
I was worried that a stampede might take place. My heart was really in my mouth. I will be dead if a stampede took place and somebody got injured. Not that i will be dead bcos somebody trampled over me but the need to answer for it. I have never done so much crowd control in my life and have never handle such a situation before and I was scared. I was so glad that so many colleagues helped out and things eventually turned out fine. Phew.. No injuries, thank God.
I like organizing events and contemplated going into events management when I was much younger. However, now that I have 2 kids and organizing such a mega event on top of the daily job gave me nightmares. Yes, can you hear how relief I am now that the event is finally over?
I hope I am not so suay to kena organizing the event next year. Next year's is supposed to be bigger. Crossed fingers and toes.
Mummy Lim
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Friday, October 21, 2011
Happy Bday Lil Isaac
Lil Isaac turns one today.. and I actually forgotten about it, only to remember it in the late morning. And I couldnt go off work early, it was already super late when we picked the kids up. Still, we bought him a cake and jiejie decorated it. Jiejie's master piece.
We sang him the bday song and Lil Isaac looks stone throughout the celebration. Jiejie helped to blow the candle and cut the cake. Well, at least Lil Isaac gets to eat his bday cake. :)
We threw Lil Isaac a "great" bday party last Sunday. I said that it was "great", not bcos it was a magnificient party but bcos it turned out well, much better than I expected despite the little effort that I put in. I am dead busy bcos of the coming Company's event and I seriously cannot even find time to breathe. And our dear Popo insisted that bday party must be held before he officially turns one. I was actually very tempted not to hold a bday party at all, but I was worried that he will blame me for favortism in the future. Afterall, jiejie had bday parties for both her 1st and 2nd bday and she had 4 cakes to celebrate her bday this year.
There was little attempt to sycronise the theme for Lil Isaac's party. Well, I did try and at least he ended up with a "cars" cake.
I rented a ball pit with slide and Lil Isaac loves it.
And so did his little friends.
I also rented a rocking horse and a cottage house for the older kids and the toys were a hit. I made good choices this time.
The jiejies were much more excited than him during cake cutting.
Lil Isaac was generally in a good mood.
His loot.
He received so many toys, much more than what we bought him in this lifetime.
Dear Lil Isaac, pls grow up quickly, learn to walk and talk so that we can enjoy you more. Love you. Muaks.
Mummy Lim
We sang him the bday song and Lil Isaac looks stone throughout the celebration. Jiejie helped to blow the candle and cut the cake. Well, at least Lil Isaac gets to eat his bday cake. :)
We threw Lil Isaac a "great" bday party last Sunday. I said that it was "great", not bcos it was a magnificient party but bcos it turned out well, much better than I expected despite the little effort that I put in. I am dead busy bcos of the coming Company's event and I seriously cannot even find time to breathe. And our dear Popo insisted that bday party must be held before he officially turns one. I was actually very tempted not to hold a bday party at all, but I was worried that he will blame me for favortism in the future. Afterall, jiejie had bday parties for both her 1st and 2nd bday and she had 4 cakes to celebrate her bday this year.
There was little attempt to sycronise the theme for Lil Isaac's party. Well, I did try and at least he ended up with a "cars" cake.
I rented a ball pit with slide and Lil Isaac loves it.
And so did his little friends.
I also rented a rocking horse and a cottage house for the older kids and the toys were a hit. I made good choices this time.
The jiejies were much more excited than him during cake cutting.
Lil Isaac was generally in a good mood.
His loot.
He received so many toys, much more than what we bought him in this lifetime.
Dear Lil Isaac, pls grow up quickly, learn to walk and talk so that we can enjoy you more. Love you. Muaks.
Mummy Lim
Struggling
Lil Isaac still maintain that he doesn't want to latch. I tried and he bit me before turning away and started crying. Win liao, I didn't even scold him. To save me from the heartache, I didn't force him to latch.
We introduced partial formula milk last night and he had no problem with the milk but he still gave us hell by refusing to drink his milk initially. He was cranky and I guess it is bcos he screwed up his schedule. He is used to latch for his last feed and will drift off to lala land while latching. But bcos he refused to latch, he can't sleep and he was cranky. There was much crying and it was finally Popo to the rescue, who tucked him to bed and made him finished his bottle. Mummy was dead tired by then bcos Lil Isaac partied with her for over an hour the night before.
Lil Isaac woke up at 1+am but Popo didn't wake me up. She didn't see the need too since I won't be latching anyway. I felt bad for disturbing Popo's sleep. I should and want to continue to take the night feed. Must work out some arrangement.
Last night, I was finally able to tuck him to bed. :) We locked ourselves in the pitch black room and he was still happily crawling, refusing his bottle. I rocked him to semi-sleep state when he was finally tired and then I dream fed him. Although he didnt finish his bottle, at least I managed to tuck him to bed, the first time since the day that he refuses to latch. That sense of achievement and pride that I felt was immersed. Oh, he hasn't been up for milk for 2 nights! He does stirred but settled back to bed after some patting. This may be one of the few benefits of his refusal to latch.
I don't know if Lil Isaac will eventually latch back. I really hope he would, I am not done with him yet.
Mummy Lim
We introduced partial formula milk last night and he had no problem with the milk but he still gave us hell by refusing to drink his milk initially. He was cranky and I guess it is bcos he screwed up his schedule. He is used to latch for his last feed and will drift off to lala land while latching. But bcos he refused to latch, he can't sleep and he was cranky. There was much crying and it was finally Popo to the rescue, who tucked him to bed and made him finished his bottle. Mummy was dead tired by then bcos Lil Isaac partied with her for over an hour the night before.
Lil Isaac woke up at 1+am but Popo didn't wake me up. She didn't see the need too since I won't be latching anyway. I felt bad for disturbing Popo's sleep. I should and want to continue to take the night feed. Must work out some arrangement.
Last night, I was finally able to tuck him to bed. :) We locked ourselves in the pitch black room and he was still happily crawling, refusing his bottle. I rocked him to semi-sleep state when he was finally tired and then I dream fed him. Although he didnt finish his bottle, at least I managed to tuck him to bed, the first time since the day that he refuses to latch. That sense of achievement and pride that I felt was immersed. Oh, he hasn't been up for milk for 2 nights! He does stirred but settled back to bed after some patting. This may be one of the few benefits of his refusal to latch.
I don't know if Lil Isaac will eventually latch back. I really hope he would, I am not done with him yet.
Mummy Lim
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Really The End?
Lil Isaac still refuses to latch yday and I couldn’t even manage to latch him in the middle of the night. He was cranky but refused to latch and refused bottle. He finally fell asleep on our bed with no milk after lots of whining, tossing and turning. And I had to express after he fell asleep.
He woke up at 2am for his night feed but refused to latch again. It was bad. He started fussing when I put him on the nursing pillow. When I attempted to latch him, he either turned his face away from my breasts or gave me a nasty bite before turning away and crying. It didn’t matter which breast I offered, the end result is the same and the warm night definitely didn’t help. We were both perspiring after a few attempts to latch him.
I finally gave in to the bottle and heated up 60ml of ebm for him, which he drank hungrily. I offered my breasts after that but he still refused. Then, he spent the next 45 mins tossing and turning on the bed. I supposed he was still hungry or needed more milk to drift back to lala land. I gave up struggling with him after 45 mins and gave him another 90ml via bottle and that knocked him out but leaving me wide awake. I expressed again and finally turned in at 3+am.
I tried to read up on possibilities of Lil Isaac’s sudden refusal to latch. There is of course the teething possibility, the milk strike possibility and lastly the self wean possibility. He is likely to be teething and he showed me that he is not happy at me scolding him by refusing to latch. It can’t be a milk strike bcos he still takes his bottle and drinks when Popo spoon feed him. I am not sure if he is self weaning. Anyway, this mummy is more upset than he is. I am definitely not ready to wean Lil Isaac and never imagine that he will be the one who call the shots on when I should stop breastfeeding him! Hello, I am the mummy. Me, me, me!!!
Daddy Lim was telling me that I should take this opportunity to stop breastfeeding. But I enjoy breastfeeding, the bonding and all the conveniences that come with it. No need to bring along milk bottles, no need for hotwater flask, no need to heat ebm, no need to wash bottles, etc. Since I still have milk and have established a routine, I will still continue to express, which will mean that I will now have to spend more time expressing and I have to find ways to express if I were to spend long hours outside. The only comfort is that I no longer will be indecently exposed in public, there is no need to look and queue for nursing rooms and my nipples will not get bitten. Boohoo, I still like direct latching better.
I will continue to try to latch him, hoping that he will agree to latch after a few days of tantrum or when his gums are not so itchy. We will be introducing him formula tonight. This will at least save us some agony of having to heat up ebm in the middle of the night and when we are outside if he really decides that he wants off from mummy’s breasts.
I am still sore and upset. I am being manipulated by my barely one year old son. I felt a little better after wat’sapping Mummy J and Mummy S who comforted me that at least I don’t have to wean off Lil Isaac, which could prove to be another nightmare.
Mummy Lim
He woke up at 2am for his night feed but refused to latch again. It was bad. He started fussing when I put him on the nursing pillow. When I attempted to latch him, he either turned his face away from my breasts or gave me a nasty bite before turning away and crying. It didn’t matter which breast I offered, the end result is the same and the warm night definitely didn’t help. We were both perspiring after a few attempts to latch him.
I finally gave in to the bottle and heated up 60ml of ebm for him, which he drank hungrily. I offered my breasts after that but he still refused. Then, he spent the next 45 mins tossing and turning on the bed. I supposed he was still hungry or needed more milk to drift back to lala land. I gave up struggling with him after 45 mins and gave him another 90ml via bottle and that knocked him out but leaving me wide awake. I expressed again and finally turned in at 3+am.
I tried to read up on possibilities of Lil Isaac’s sudden refusal to latch. There is of course the teething possibility, the milk strike possibility and lastly the self wean possibility. He is likely to be teething and he showed me that he is not happy at me scolding him by refusing to latch. It can’t be a milk strike bcos he still takes his bottle and drinks when Popo spoon feed him. I am not sure if he is self weaning. Anyway, this mummy is more upset than he is. I am definitely not ready to wean Lil Isaac and never imagine that he will be the one who call the shots on when I should stop breastfeeding him! Hello, I am the mummy. Me, me, me!!!
Daddy Lim was telling me that I should take this opportunity to stop breastfeeding. But I enjoy breastfeeding, the bonding and all the conveniences that come with it. No need to bring along milk bottles, no need for hotwater flask, no need to heat ebm, no need to wash bottles, etc. Since I still have milk and have established a routine, I will still continue to express, which will mean that I will now have to spend more time expressing and I have to find ways to express if I were to spend long hours outside. The only comfort is that I no longer will be indecently exposed in public, there is no need to look and queue for nursing rooms and my nipples will not get bitten. Boohoo, I still like direct latching better.
I will continue to try to latch him, hoping that he will agree to latch after a few days of tantrum or when his gums are not so itchy. We will be introducing him formula tonight. This will at least save us some agony of having to heat up ebm in the middle of the night and when we are outside if he really decides that he wants off from mummy’s breasts.
I am still sore and upset. I am being manipulated by my barely one year old son. I felt a little better after wat’sapping Mummy J and Mummy S who comforted me that at least I don’t have to wean off Lil Isaac, which could prove to be another nightmare.
Mummy Lim
Monday, October 17, 2011
The End?
I think Lil Isaac is teething. His big molars are trying to cut through. We see him putting his fingers into his mouth a lot recently. His gum must be really itchy and poor mummy suffered with him as well. For the whole of yday, I was unable to latch him. The moment I tried, he clamped his teeth on my poor nipples. I already complained when he sinks his toothless gum on me, so you can imagine my agony when he has 8 pearly whites now.
Usually, he only bites me when I force him to latch. Yday, he refused to suckle even when he was really hungry and sleepy. We go into this biting-scolding-crying cycle over and over again with no success. I eventually gave in to the bottle and he actually took the bottle without much struggle and even fell asleep. This happen for both the afternoon nap and the last night feed. He usually refused the bottle when I am around. I bet he likes it that the bottle doesn’t scold him when he bites the teat to sooth his itchy gum. I was worried about the night feed. I cant help wondering who would save me if he continues to bite me in the middle of the night and refuses to latch.
My fear came true during the night feed. We both ended up feeling frustrated. In the end, I brought him to the room and switched on the air con and Lil Isaac actually drifted back to sleep without latching. He was comfortable and contented while I was upset and wondering if my breastfeeding career has come to an end. Boohoo, I enjoy latching him so much! I like the bonding and the convenience of latching him outside.
Later in the night, jiejie woke me up and stirred Lil Isaac. I quickly took the opportunity to latch him and he didn’t bite me for the 1st time in the many hours. I never felt happier having to do night latches.
I don’t know if things have improved. I hope. This nipple biting game is seriously not fun. Jia you, jia you!
Mummy Lim
Usually, he only bites me when I force him to latch. Yday, he refused to suckle even when he was really hungry and sleepy. We go into this biting-scolding-crying cycle over and over again with no success. I eventually gave in to the bottle and he actually took the bottle without much struggle and even fell asleep. This happen for both the afternoon nap and the last night feed. He usually refused the bottle when I am around. I bet he likes it that the bottle doesn’t scold him when he bites the teat to sooth his itchy gum. I was worried about the night feed. I cant help wondering who would save me if he continues to bite me in the middle of the night and refuses to latch.
My fear came true during the night feed. We both ended up feeling frustrated. In the end, I brought him to the room and switched on the air con and Lil Isaac actually drifted back to sleep without latching. He was comfortable and contented while I was upset and wondering if my breastfeeding career has come to an end. Boohoo, I enjoy latching him so much! I like the bonding and the convenience of latching him outside.
Later in the night, jiejie woke me up and stirred Lil Isaac. I quickly took the opportunity to latch him and he didn’t bite me for the 1st time in the many hours. I never felt happier having to do night latches.
I don’t know if things have improved. I hope. This nipple biting game is seriously not fun. Jia you, jia you!
Mummy Lim
Sunday, October 16, 2011
MA wants to go
MA dropped the bomb this morning. She said that her family is going to start building the house in Philippines, the sole reason for her to work in Singapore and they needed her back to sign some papers. She didn't say that she won't come back but I told her that I won't wait even if she wants to. It is far too risky. They are afterall maids and wouldn't bat an eyelid for playing us out.
She said that she hopes to go home after she gets her next pay, which is the beginning of November. I asked her to wait until we get her replacement and dangled a free air ticket if she can help and not give me problem until the time she goes. Thankfully, she agreed but said that she has to go before the end of the year. I would want her to go asap too. I bet she is already on holiday mode and not forgetting that air ticket is really expensive nearing Christmas.
I didn't bother to retain her. Afterall, she has really bad chemistry with Popo. I am so sick of hearing Popo complained about MA. I hate it when Popo calls me during work offices to complain and the need to manage Popo and MA after a hard days' work.
I had been toying with the idea of going maid-free but the timing is just not right. Lil Isaac is too young for childcare. The idea might work if MA has stayed awhile more, when Lil Isaac is at least 18 mths old and we send both kids to childcare. Popo cannot handle 2 kids with no maid now.
I am going maid hunting later when jiejie goes for her phonics class. I am not sure if I should continue to insist for a Christian maid. I don't know if we should try a Indonesian maid. We have seen and engaged enuff maid to understand that it is a pure game of luck.
Maids' salary have definitely increased. The papers has just reported on the curbing of Indonesian maids a week ago. Not forgetting that Hari Raya is around the corner and Indonesian maids may not come in until after that. Of course, we have to worry about the need to change maid even if we manage to secure one now. Oh, the need to train too. Arrggghhhh... Pls keep us in your prayers.
Mummy Lim
She said that she hopes to go home after she gets her next pay, which is the beginning of November. I asked her to wait until we get her replacement and dangled a free air ticket if she can help and not give me problem until the time she goes. Thankfully, she agreed but said that she has to go before the end of the year. I would want her to go asap too. I bet she is already on holiday mode and not forgetting that air ticket is really expensive nearing Christmas.
I didn't bother to retain her. Afterall, she has really bad chemistry with Popo. I am so sick of hearing Popo complained about MA. I hate it when Popo calls me during work offices to complain and the need to manage Popo and MA after a hard days' work.
I had been toying with the idea of going maid-free but the timing is just not right. Lil Isaac is too young for childcare. The idea might work if MA has stayed awhile more, when Lil Isaac is at least 18 mths old and we send both kids to childcare. Popo cannot handle 2 kids with no maid now.
I am going maid hunting later when jiejie goes for her phonics class. I am not sure if I should continue to insist for a Christian maid. I don't know if we should try a Indonesian maid. We have seen and engaged enuff maid to understand that it is a pure game of luck.
Maids' salary have definitely increased. The papers has just reported on the curbing of Indonesian maids a week ago. Not forgetting that Hari Raya is around the corner and Indonesian maids may not come in until after that. Of course, we have to worry about the need to change maid even if we manage to secure one now. Oh, the need to train too. Arrggghhhh... Pls keep us in your prayers.
Mummy Lim
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Over
Lil Isaac's bday party is finally over and I am dead tired but I just refused to sleep. All are down... I just need some quiet time to surf and stone.
Mummy Lim
Mummy Lim
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Hope and Warmth
I was depressed day, seriously depressed.
I was wat’sapp-ing ah yee yday morning, who first think that maybe I am ADHD and eventually concluded that I should see a counselor for anger management.
Then I went through some work session that didn’t turn out too well.
Finally, there were some really big screw ups that I think I could have done better if I had more time and paid more attention.
Of course, we still have to handle a cranky and sleep deprived jiejie in the evening and a little tiger who didn’t stop struggle while we were running some errands in JP and didn’t at all enjoy his car ride.
Overall, it was just plain bad and I was simply depressed beyond words. My mood didn’t lift even at bedtime. Well, at least sleep was pretty much ok and Lil Isaac only woke up once to latch and jiejie slept through. I didn’t feel any much better this morning. Then again, life goes on.
Daddy Lim and I went for bfast as usual before work this morning. After we alighted from the car, I spotted a very worn wallet on the road. We picked it up eventually even though Daddy Lim wasn’t very encouraging in the beginning. It belongs to a Singaporean uncle. There was no cash so I concluded it either belongs to a poor uncle or somebody already took the cash. A number of important documents such as his IC and driving license and some working license remain. I was keen to return it to the owner.
We dug through the documents during bfast but didn’t find anything to suggest how we can contact the owner and he stays in faraway Seng Kang. I looked through the content again when I was in office and still cannot figure out how to reach him and started feeling dishearten and wonder why I bothered to be so kpo. I then passed the wallet to a colleague and related the story before rushing on with the day’s work, meetings and all. I had intended to hand the wallet to the policeman uncle or simply mailed it back to the owner.
When I was coming back from my meeting, I met the same colleague who told me that she managed to contact the owner! She had called his dental clinic who gave her his number and the uncle was actually at the gate to retrieve his wallet. Over the phone, he was really glad and grateful that somebody picked up the wallet and arranged to return to him and told my colleague to thank me.
I usually wouldn’t bother to receive such thanks personally but actually went with my colleague to meet the uncle just now. I don’t know what got into me. Of course he thanked me profusely and as per any Singaporean who has lost his IC, he was really glad to have it back (and other important documents). The money was gone, which he was the least concerned and I went away happy too. It is like the sunshine breaking through the dark clouds. It actually lifted me, making me realized that life is indeed full of hopes. The warmth of life! I am so glad that I have done a good deed. That emotion was indescribable. The uncle even smsed my colleague to thank my colleague and me after the whole incident. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I am re-charged!
Mummy Lim
I was wat’sapp-ing ah yee yday morning, who first think that maybe I am ADHD and eventually concluded that I should see a counselor for anger management.
Then I went through some work session that didn’t turn out too well.
Finally, there were some really big screw ups that I think I could have done better if I had more time and paid more attention.
Of course, we still have to handle a cranky and sleep deprived jiejie in the evening and a little tiger who didn’t stop struggle while we were running some errands in JP and didn’t at all enjoy his car ride.
Overall, it was just plain bad and I was simply depressed beyond words. My mood didn’t lift even at bedtime. Well, at least sleep was pretty much ok and Lil Isaac only woke up once to latch and jiejie slept through. I didn’t feel any much better this morning. Then again, life goes on.
Daddy Lim and I went for bfast as usual before work this morning. After we alighted from the car, I spotted a very worn wallet on the road. We picked it up eventually even though Daddy Lim wasn’t very encouraging in the beginning. It belongs to a Singaporean uncle. There was no cash so I concluded it either belongs to a poor uncle or somebody already took the cash. A number of important documents such as his IC and driving license and some working license remain. I was keen to return it to the owner.
We dug through the documents during bfast but didn’t find anything to suggest how we can contact the owner and he stays in faraway Seng Kang. I looked through the content again when I was in office and still cannot figure out how to reach him and started feeling dishearten and wonder why I bothered to be so kpo. I then passed the wallet to a colleague and related the story before rushing on with the day’s work, meetings and all. I had intended to hand the wallet to the policeman uncle or simply mailed it back to the owner.
When I was coming back from my meeting, I met the same colleague who told me that she managed to contact the owner! She had called his dental clinic who gave her his number and the uncle was actually at the gate to retrieve his wallet. Over the phone, he was really glad and grateful that somebody picked up the wallet and arranged to return to him and told my colleague to thank me.
I usually wouldn’t bother to receive such thanks personally but actually went with my colleague to meet the uncle just now. I don’t know what got into me. Of course he thanked me profusely and as per any Singaporean who has lost his IC, he was really glad to have it back (and other important documents). The money was gone, which he was the least concerned and I went away happy too. It is like the sunshine breaking through the dark clouds. It actually lifted me, making me realized that life is indeed full of hopes. The warmth of life! I am so glad that I have done a good deed. That emotion was indescribable. The uncle even smsed my colleague to thank my colleague and me after the whole incident. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I am re-charged!
Mummy Lim
Monday, October 10, 2011
Tiger or Bear?
Too cute!
Daddy Lim hates it when I buy hoodie or caps with "ears" for the kiddos but didnt object to this one cos he is too cute!
He looks so delicious. I think I can eat him. Lol.
Mummy Lim
Daddy Lim hates it when I buy hoodie or caps with "ears" for the kiddos but didnt object to this one cos he is too cute!
He looks so delicious. I think I can eat him. Lol.
Mummy Lim
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